Sept. 24, 2005 - pity party

Damn it, I stress easily.
My landlady informed me she is selling the duplex I live in. Apparently I am the only one paying rent out of her 3 rental houses (?!?), she's tired of it all and is selling this house. She said the realtors will be here Tuesday morning at 10:15 to see the house. She said they will also have a key as they will need to show the house to prospective buyers. Huh? Does that mean they can just knock and/or come in? Frak. I am an incredibly private hermit, and a nervous one at times, the thought of strangers just being able to walk into my apt freaks me out. More and more I want to move from here. The neighbors, no pets, (it's always us responsible pet owners who suffer from other's stupidity),..this is really stressing me, I don't know why. I took 2 Ativan but they aren't working.
I have to hide the rats, I'll throw a blanket over them or something, they are quiet. This is terrible. Jeremy has always known he can live with me whenever he needs to but he won't want to live without his animals. I am NOT getting rid of his animals while he is in prison. I can't just give them away, they are all he has left. His boa is already at Christy's house cuz of the landlord, they have their own pets and they are out of room. Yes, rats and snakes aren't conventional pets, but they are clean and quiet and very sweet and I take care of them. They never smell, the rats (the boys) get baths and lots of love and the python used to drape across my shoulders while I was online and sleep. My point is, people hear or see the word 'rat', and it's even worse than snake. My landlady has no idea where Jeremy is, she does not need to know. He's been through enough. I doubt he'll be released by his birthday Nov.6. That will be a tough day if he's in jail on his birthday for something he didn't even do. But I digress.

I will deal with it all, I don't know why I am so anxious. Maybe if I go create something I'll feel better. Have a safe night kittens.

Sept. 22, 2005 - Omg Amber, I wish this was you!!!

"BOSTON -- There was an emotional end to an unusual trial Thursday when Rebecca Harland was convicted of having falsely accused an ex-boyfriend of rape and was sentenced to prison for perjury, Boston TV station WCVB reported.
Prosecutors claim Harland's motive for lying was revenge because Smith had broken off their relationship. But Smith, who has a criminal record, said he never had a steady relationship with Harland.
'I'm no angel. I've done time before. And a rapist is called a skinner in jail, and they get treated like s---. And I got treated like s---,' Smith said.
Arguing that Harland's crime affects all victims of sexual assault who tell the truth, the prosecution had recommended a less severe 2½ years in the House of Corrections. Harland's lawyer recommended probation.
Suffolk County Prosecutor David Procopio said the state does not think Harland should go to state prison.
'We believe she should do House of Corrections time,' he said.
In imposing the stiffer prison sentence, Judge Charles Spurlock said Harland's lie went to the heart of the system, and she will serve every day of her three-year sentence."

And this

"Some argue that no woman would expose herself to the ordeal of prosecuting a rape charge for such frivolous reasons. But as Kanin points out, men and women do commit extreme acts with highly unpleasant consequences (including murder) over 'petty and commonplace transgressions.'
Feminists often decry our culture's alleged eagerness to believe the 'myths of the lying woman.' But it seems that it's the 'victims don't lie' myth that is entrenched today. There is virtually no research on false allegations; Kanin's study (which he says a female colleague tried to discourage him from pursuing) received no press coverage.
The 'believe the woman' principle has also gained ground in the legal system. Once, many states' laws required the testimony of the accuser to be corroborated by other evidence (though only a minority of jurisdictions ever strictly enforced this rule, and by 1980 it was nearly extinct). Feminists had a strong claim of discrimination when they noted that there was no such requirement for robbery or assault. Still, as feminist legal scholar Susan Estrich acknowledged in her influential writings on rape law in the 1980s, without corroboration a conviction is far less likely for any crime. But Estrich argued that, since 'corroboration may be uniquely absent' in acquaintance rape cases, giving the same weight to corroboration for rape as for robbery or felony assault was unfair to rape victims.
Of course, it then follows that to be 'fair,' we should convict defendants in rape cases on less evidence -- and give the accuser's word more weight -- than in other crimes. Which makes those old sexist warnings about how hard it is for an innocent man to defend himself against a charge of rape ring uncomfortably true.
'Thank goodness,' writes New York prosecutor Linda Fairstein in her book 'Sexual Violence,' '[the victim's] testimony -- when it is credible -- is all that is needed to convict a rapist, as it is any other criminal.'
But what is 'credible'? In 1996, Los Angeles police officer Harris Scott Mintz was accused of rape by two women who were said to be "very credible": a woman in the neighborhood he patrolled, then his own wife. At a pretrial hearing, the judge pronounced that he had no doubt about Mintz's guilt. Then, Mrs. Mintz admitted that she made up the charge because she was angry at her husband for getting in trouble with the law; subsequently, Mintz's attorneys uncovered evidence that the first accuser had told an ex-roommate she had concocted the rape charge in order to sue the county, and that she had tried a similar hoax before. By the time the case collapsed, Mintz had spent five months in jail."

It all makes my head hurt. Jeremy will have been in jail for 5 months on October 2. His letters still break my heart though he doesn't know that as I am upbeat and positive when I write him. I miss my son very much. I have this feeling getting him released after serving his 6 months isn't going to be easy. His public defender has not answered his letters or my emails. As much as I'm looking forward to bringing him home, I'm dreading the ordeal of it. What doesn't kill me will make me stronger. Right. How freaking strong do I have to be? OY. Peace kittens.

pondered at 9:50pm Thursday

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Sept. 21, 2005 - Aiya

Oh my, I've been working on LOTR stuff for hours. I made another plug site (I knew I would) for LOTR sites and it's very nice if I may say so myself. :P Visit Aiya Plugs. The word 'Aiya' is from the LOTR language Quenya and means "behold, hail". I thought it appropriate for a plugboard.

As I work, I'm watching the LOTR Extended Editions. There are so many good looking men in these films! Oy. Maybe I'm just missing testosterone, I haven't had a boyfriend for 2 years now. Being single and celibate is okay, but it would be cool to hold a man close and cuddle. I love the male scent and physique. Sex wouldn't be bad either. :P But I'm too shy to go meet anyone and I don't do one night stands, so I guess I'll just look at men from afar and drool. I had no idea my love life was going to end so soon, but oh well.
Wow, I haven't eaten all day, no wonder I'm hungry. Time to fill the tummy and finish watching The Return of the King. I'm also watching Merlin and the EE of Stargate almost everyday. I adore James Spader and watch any movie he's in. Since I'm on the subject of fine looking males, I leave you with Sean Bean who is quite easy on the eyes in LOTR, Troy, National Treasure, etc. Have a good hump day kittens.

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Sept. 13, 2005 - booyah

Lessee, I joined 2 blog rotations: BlogExchange & Blog Bitches. I made a new plugboard for Wiccan, magick, Halloween, etc. sites Witchy Moon Plugs. That means I have 3 plug sites now and I'm sure I'll make a couple more. My insomnia is my constant companion, I walked and walked yesterday trying to tire myself, but it didn't work. Ah well. I hope everyone is having a good week. Don't forget our fellow Americans in New Orleans, keep them in your thoughts and prayers. My pal Friday & her husband lost everything. I can't imagine that. My heart aches for all those devastated by this tragedy. If you'd like to donate online to the Red Cross, click here.

pondered at 5:55pm Tuesday

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Ónen i-Estel Edain. Ú-chebin estel anim.

Sept. 07, 2005 - ruminations

Greetings kittens. Ho hum, did it again, go see the kind of plugboard I really wanted to make. (site 35 *cough*) I then had to make a topsites to go with it. (site 36 *ahem cough* darn hair balls)

My neighbors are funny folk. They talk about me even though I'm a total hermit who seldom ventures anywhere, much less talks to anyone. I decided to be sociable the other day because the weather is glorious, and I found out a few things. They thought I lived with snakes and 500 mice. They think I'm on disability for my back. Strange. The phrase was "She must have more than one snake up there, she has at least 500 mice." I do? Pardon me, but right now I have one. At most I might have had 20 many months ago. But 500? Egad. That's like those little old ladies with 50 cats. Yikes. No, I don't even have Jeremy's ball python now. My landlady brought over a letter from her insurance company stating it was raising her premium to $700 because I have a snake and they carry salmonella. I live in a duplex in the upstairs apt., it's a health hazard. If it was a single dwelling, it wouldn't be a problem. Humph. I think it just freaks people out that I had a snake so they came up with a reason for me to have to remove it. It is over at the Puppy Couple's crowded house and I continue to breed the mice to feed it. Thank goodness they don't know about Jeremy's 2 rats, Rex and Zero...heh They are my buddies and keep me company as I can't have a cat or a dog. The injustice of it all! I want a dog so badly, but oh well. It makes me want to move where I can have the animals I love. I really liked the python, he sat around my neck when I was online. I am odd, yes.

I feel like crap, I wish menopause would just get here and get over with already. I'm in early menopause, so does that mean it will be over with faster? Dare I hope and dream? Nah.

As I mentioned in my SayBox, Friday who lives (lived?) in New Orleans is ok! Her and her husband and family are safe. I was so relieved I cried. I wish I had a friend offline like Friday. Always there with a word, an ecard, an email or a cyber hug. She is in my thoughts and prayers.

I'm thinking of making another blog just for site inceptions, start dates, updates and so forth. With 36 sites to maintain, I must stay organized. Focus, people. Self discipline. It would be sort of techy and just deal with my sites, not my oh so exciting personal life. We'll see. Have a happy!

pondered at 12:15am Wednesday

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